From not buying so much meat and using beans and TVP instead I spent 196$ for a month worth of food with to many snack for DH lol. I am very happy.

Todays sermon was very lovely the whole theme of the service was about thanks giving. The hims were nice and the readings really hit home. Especially since we are a one income family and have had some hard times.

That's it for now.

God Bless.
How fitting that we had a fire call today. I think every fire fighter out there still hurts from this. I know my station does. We were put on stand by that day and our Chief went up. He still tells the stories. I know it effected every one but I think the fire fighters across the country were some that took it and still take it the hardest. I still pray for their souls. I think I always will.

9-11-01 Pictures, Images and Photos

Many parent's are keeping their kids from watching the upcoming speech in school and I DON'T blame them! Some schools aren't even letting the parents have a choice and that aggravates me even more!

"But some parents won't be allowed to "opt-out" their kids everywhere. At least one school district, Tempe Elementary School District No. 3 in Arizona, is not permitting parents to pull their children out of class during Obama's speech."

How can a school district tell parents "your child is going to watch this and you don't have a choice" and people wonder why I am going to home school.

Another thing that I don't find kosher is this.

" lesson plans, for students in pre-kindergarten through grade 6, which suggested that students write letters to themselves about what they can do to help the president." Another assignment for students after hearing the speech was to discuss what "the president wants us to do."

This is supposed to be a speech about education? This to me sounds like something else, something that I would not want my child exposed to.

How does every one else feel?

Are expecting again I am so happy for them! I will also let God decide how many children we will have and raise them in the name of the lord!

In other thoughts I have come to realize I need to spend some time reading my bible hoping to calm this nagging disobedience that I have when it comes to certain things regarding my husband. There was an issue today and I relaize now I should be more respectful. And I plan to from now on.
Today has been a very blessed day. I truly know that God works in mysterious ways.
Bake 3 loaves of bread
Do 2 loads of wash
Put all wash away
Sweep kitchen
Do Dishes
Make Dinner.


This song makes me feel better

You can spend your whole life building
Something from nothin'
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway

You can chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
I do it anyway

This world's gone crazy
It's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway

You can love someone with all your heart
For all the right reasons
In a moment they can choose to walk away
Love 'em anyway

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
Yea - I do it anyway

You can pour your soul out singing
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yea, sing it anyway
Yeah, yeah!

I sing
I dream
I love anyway

Martina McBride
It has been a crazy 2 months. Our first 2 months on our own. Here's what's going on. Every thing that could possibly happen that involves money has happened. The rent as been upped and we went over our food budget. Dh doesn't get paid till Wednesday and we have 30 dollars in the checking and Dh's truck needs gas. My car is in the shop and needs 900$ to fix it. We have money in the savings but I hate using it. And to top it all off my Grandmother probably has cancer, we are waiting for the results of a stat MRI. Help?

Please pray for every one involved if you could. We need it.

Things have been going good as usual, I still have wash waiting to be washed and dishes in the sink but life is well.

DH is stressing out about money how ever. Hes not used to having to have a budget. But hes adjusting as well. When I grew up as long as our bills were paid and there was food in the fridge we were doing fine, to DH however hes never known what it's like to have to decide which bill gets paid now and which has to wait. His parents retired early and never had to even budget. Hes never known what struggling is. Honestly I prefer it my way. I think the more money you have the more stress in your life. You make more money to spend more money and I think it has evil tendencies. hes learning...slowly.

God bless.
TTC!!!! AHHH I am so excited. Dh and I had a discussion, we talked about our wants and beliefs and I explained to him that it doesn't usually happen right away and with the time line that he wants his life to be like we should start trying and even though he is scared and excited he agreed!! I can't wait! I'm doing so much research and reading peoples stories. Please if you have any advice comment!

God bless!
My old truck died on me and I decided I wanted a car so I got a really nice black 98 Jetta. I love it!

Sorry I haven't been posting. I'm just so busy. I promise I'm going to do better!
I see this now. Indeed I do.
I'm still here and still looking at my blogs : )

Life is just really busy with cooking and cleaning and fire company and still trying to clean out my room back at the house. But I just want to let my readers know that I'm still around.
I was sitting on my porch today reading a book during a little bit of free time today and I heard a noise so I looked up and it was a tractor driving up main st. That's why I like living where I live.

The quite country life style that I love surrounds me here.

I like my home made bread, my green cabinets with the leaf handles and my neighbors who aren't afraid to say and act like Christians. I feel at home here even though it has only been a week. I love it here.

On a side note we have new members of the family!

This is Harry he is 2 years old.

And this is Rambo who is chewing on me as I type this. She is 4 months old.
Well here's the story. Tom went back to work on Monday and I realized (being used to animals or people always around) that it is extremely lonely by your self. So we adopted a kitten who is 4 months old and a big lap cat who is 2 years old. (he is the only one the kitten got along with) and I just absolutely love them! Needless to say we are still very busy.

On to other news...

I made my first loaf of bread in my new bread machine and I love it!

That's all for now.

God bless.
Yes we finally did it! We are still unpacking and the place is a mess but it's ours!


The weather in my neck of the woods:
A little cloudy and 80 not to bad.

One of my simple pleasures:
Eating dinner with my husband in our new place.

On my bedside table:
Alarm clock and a deer lamp and 8 books lol.

On my TV:

On the menu for tonight:
We had pan fried bass yummie

On my To Do List:

New Recipe I tried last week:
Breakfast casserole. Very yummy.

In the craft basket:
Nothing : (

Looking forward to:
Getting situated.

Homemaking Tip for this week:
One step at a time *giggles*

Favorite Blog Post of the week (mine or other):
I haven't looked really to busy.

Favorite photo from last week:
It's not letting me upload pictures : (

Lesson learned the past few days:
The world wasn't built in a day.

On my Prayer List:
My husband

Devotionals, Scripture Reading, Key Verses:
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil. It shall be health to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones. Honour the Lord with thy substance, and with the firstfruits of all thine increase: So shall thy barns be filled with plenty, and thy presses shall burst out with new wine.
(Proverbs 3:5-10)
Between the apartment and fire company I am exhausted and the fire co picnic isn't till tomorrow! AH. *giggles* But I'm feeling good besides the massive amount of dishes and laundry that needs to be done because we are moving in on Sunday!!! I can't wait!

More coming soon!

Got 2 loads of laundry done. YAY!

This passage is how I feel today, I feel very loved.

Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name.
(Psalm 91:14)
About the birth control issue I have been fighting with my self again.

What do you do when you can't help but feel like a murder, but your husband insists on me taking it still? It's not that he is an un-godly man because he is not. He is just afraid that if we put it into God's hands I will become pregnant and we wont be financially ready. That I would not be able to stay home and that we will never buy a house. Honestly I understands how he feels and I respect him. But I really do not see the money issue. I will have insurance in October. So that is taken care of. I would breastfeed until the baby would eat solids ok got that. Cloth diaper. Got that. And gear and clothing from my shower (my family is BIG on showers) and from salvation army. I feel that we would be fine.

I would like real input from people on how expensive it really is. From frugal breastfeeding Christian women if you would be so kind. Becuase I know there are allot of lurkers on this site *giggles*

The money thing aside though, I truely believe that god would not give me a child if he thought I couldn't do it. I've prayed very hard about this and I truly believe it is the right thing to do. Any help would be greatly apreciated.

One that ruleth well his own house, having his children in subjection with all gravity; (For if a man know not how to rule his own house, how shall he take care of the church of God?)
--I Timothy 3:4, 5


The weather in my neck of the woods:
It reached 90 today : )

One of my simple pleasures:
Sitting on the lake in my boat.

On my bedside table:
Alarm clock and a deer lamp lol.

On my TV:
Intervention (not my choice) ; )

On the menu for tonight:
Sausage and peppers in the croc pot.

On my To Do List:

New Recipe I tried last week:
No time right now for new recipes *giggles*

In the craft basket:
Nothing : (

Looking forward to:

Homemaking Tip for this week:
Dust the ceiling or you'll get massive cob webs.

Favorite Blog Post of the week (mine or other):
The spiritual Society written by Keeper of the home

Favorite photo from last week:

This is our bedroom finished with out the curtains.

Lesson learned the past few days:
Let the little things go.

On my Prayer List:
My husband

Devotionals, Scripture Reading, Key Verses:
For ye shall go out with joy, and be led forth with peace: the mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands.
(Isaiah 55:12)

I like this one especially from just coming home from the cabin in the woods.

We will be in the apartment on Sunday!!! YAY!

The boat ride was so relaxing, we needed this. The boat that is. Dh is selling the Camaro that he bought years ago to fix up and never got around to it, so that should pretty much make up for the expenses on the boat. He also wants to sell his PlayStation! Simple living here we come!

Good night!
We had a GREAT time! We went fishing on the boat. DH loved it so much that today we bought one!! Slightly used with trailer for 500. It's very nice. We pick it up tomorrow and then we are going boating.

Wednesday and Thursday we will be finishing up the apartment! I'm so happy! And very very tired.
Are we at the cabin yet? No.

Our floor is done thank goodness! When we get back form the cabin we should be able to move in!!! AHHHH So excited.

On a darker note.

Last night my sister called me selfish because I have a genetic condition called EDS and I'm planning on having children. I think this is the most absurd thing in the world! If some one has high blood pressure in their family would they not have children because of it? NO. Every human carries some genetic defect. Allot are allot worse than mine, just because I know what that defect is does not mean I will pass it on. I have a one in four chance and honestly if I were to pass it on it would not be as bad as me because DH doesn't have this condition. (my mom and dad both had it slightly but didn't know it) Even if it was as bad; I would know how to deal with it. Grr. I can't help but be frustrated.

If every one got tested for every genetic defect they carried NO one would be haveing children...ever. I'm actually more worried about passing on something worse like Tasachts..*shivers* even though I have no family history.

But, the fact that she my own sister would think this. This condition is not a death sentence! It is a big part of my life and it made me stronger and have more character. But still I go back to the fact that my own sister thinks I shouldn't have children, she says she will adotp I want to some day too after I have my own because I want that feeling. That pregnancy feeling, and there for acourding to my sister I am selfsih.

Does this make any sence?
I hope every one had a great fourth of July. I didn't have any time to post yesterday so I'm posting good wishes today.

We here had a great time. It was very windy though. So I was busy chasing our canopy because it blew away! No one was hurt and it added a bit of excitement to the day and I'm pretty sure every one had a good time.

Dh and I are off today to finish the rest of the kitchen up so hopefully when we get back from vacation we will be ready to move in. I can't wait!

That's all for now. God bless!
I'm sorry I haven't been on I have been very busy, also my computer acts strangely when it is hot out and it was giving me problems.

Any way. Our whole bedroom is done! From paint on the walls to bedding on the bed it is done! We just have to iron the curtains. I am so happy! We have to paint the kitchen floor yet and move the stove and fridge in then we can move in! But it's not going to be for a week yet because this Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday we are going up to DH's Aunt and Uncles cabin. I can't wait!

I talked with DH about the birth control issue and he is just not keen on the idea and I must obey my husband. We will see what happens.

That's all for now! God Bless.
This post is going to be very thought driven.

In a comment on the post below this one is a link to a post that has made me think very long and hard....

I have this unshakable desire to have a child, like stated in the post below. Every logical bone in my body is telling me it would be very foolish even selfish to bring a child into this world right now because of money and insurance issues. But, I can't help but think God is giving me this urge for a reason. That he wants me to put the decision in his hands and to trust him.

For a long time I had no trust or love for him which over the past months has changed drastically. I almost feel that God is trying to break the last bit of fear and uncertainty I have about him away by giving me these feelings for such an important situation.

I am left with so many questions though. What if I'm wrong? If I get pregnant will he make every thing ok? Will I even get pregnant before these issues are resolved? Will I get pregnant at all? I guess this is where the trust is sopposed to come in.

Besides all this I am on the pill and normally I felt nothing wrong about this but now, now it's different.

The pill makes you not ovulate but it also makes the lining of your uterus thinner so even if you did conceive the embryo wouldn't implant. Have I accidentally killed a child? This thought is wretching my brain. I am very pro-life so the thought that I might have killed a living being is sickening me. Could this have possibly happend? I need to pray long and very hard sbout this.

I also definitely think DH and I will have a very long talk about me getting off the pill. Not actively try for a child but to just put it in his hands. I don't think he will like this idea though. I know he wants a child very very badly, but the possibility of actually bringing one into this world when we could possibly not be ready may not go over so well. We will see.

I will pray tonight about this and read my bible ( the first time in a very long time) and see what happens.
Yep like the title says I have the baby blues. : (

I know at this point and time it would not be in the best interest of any one to try for a child now, but it does not mean I still do not feel the need. Dh and I will not have health insurance until October and although we could live with a baby in the apartment, I think it would be best for us to have a house. We will live fine on 9 dollars an hour with just us but a baby would really be pushing it The desire is so intense right now though. I just keep on telling my self it's not the right time, but my heart keeps on saying if you start trying now you'll have insurance by the time your doctors appointments start. But I can;t think like that I must resist these urges.

I find myself looking at baby stuff online or in stores. I have every thing thought out (even though I know it will all be different lol) I would cloth diaper, brestfeed, and co sleep (with those cool things that roll and hook on to the bed) I even found the best products and prices.

Sad I know.

I feel like God is telling me to forfill my womenly dutie to bring children into this world, but I know I can't. Not yet.

Help? Any one?
I didn't post last night because we went night fishing and didn't get back till 1:30, crazy I know.

Other than that we have been painting like crazy! And we bought our washer and dryer also.

I am very happy and I feel God has blessed us very much so. But, that has not always been the case. For over a year DH was laid off and things were not looking up for us. But for the past 5 months or so things have been going great and I really think God was testing our love. I know we past with flying colors *giggles* and I thank Him very much so! One good thing after another keeps happening and I hope it continuous. I also hope that He may bless all of you who happen to see this post.

God bless and Good night.
Today the borough I live in decided to shoot the geese again, something that they have a permit for but they did it very dangerous, in the middle of the day, next to houses and with people every where! I was watching them and taking pictures to complain to the news paper about it when all of a sudden they shoot and I hear this wizz go by my ear and a splash of water hit about 5 feet away from me! They missed the geese! If that's not bad enough they injured many who will die days later and will be left to rot. To top it off these are geese with babies.. So I said enough is enough and called the game commission, and contacted a writer for our paper. The game commission is very angry will the safety concerns and the manner and number that they are killing and they will be paying them a visit. (they are the head honcho) also the reporter is going to write a story with the pictures!

I feel like I have accomplished something today.
We finished up the walls today now on to the trim!! I can't wait. I love the color but I'm getting sick of painting it hehe

Now I will not talk ill of the dead. but, there was some very hard evidence about his actions with children. And because of this evidence I can not find the sadness in my heart like many others have. I will not go into further detail than that because of my respect of the loss of a human life. But, I will say we all get judged in the end and it is up to God to decide what was true or not and what the consequences are.
Bug Bites!!!

I have about 8 right now! Dh and I went night fishing and I can say the only thing we caught were bug bites hehe. They are allot worse than last year that's for sure.

That's it for now! Good night. : )
Why? Because we were PAINTING again hehe and then we went to Walmart after stopping by fire practise.

Needless to say I am sleepy. Dh has off today so I don't have to sleep alone. YAY!

I will write a real post tomorrow when I'm not ready to fall over *giggles*

Good night every one!
This post is inspired by a post written by Coffee, Tea, Books and Me

In her post she was asking herself how far she would go for her beliefs because of an old movie and recent events in Iran.

So I will ask my self these same things.

Would I risk my life by rioting like in Iran? Yes, yes I would. Would I stand up for my rights to worship if it meant going to jail? Yes I would.

Would I risk my life if it meant I could love my husband? Yes.

Would I protest against animal cruelty? Yes and I have!

Why? Because I believe with out the power of your convictions to enlighten you, you have nothing. You cannot be happy if the strongest things you believe in, you are not aloud to practise.

Maybe it's the rebellious nature that has been inherited from my father lol. Or maybe it's the spunk I still posses from only being on this earth for 19 years. I don't know, but what I do know is that I have always fought for what I believe is right and I would risk my life if it came down to it.

Thank you Coffee, Tea, Books and me for the inspiration for this post once again.
Today started out pretty easy. I slept in a little, did a load of wash and decided to clean the fire house.


I got Thomas up at 4 and he tells me that he barely made it home last night because his car is acting REALLY weird, so we take it to the shop and then go to get our mail. On the way back we see 2 friends of ours walking down the street because THEIR car broke down. So we take them back to their car and try to figure out whats going on. We can't figure it out so he calls another friend to help because by this time it's 6 o'clock and Tom has to leave to go to work at 7. We finally get home he jumps in the shower and I make him a quick sandwich and out the door he goes. Poor thing.

I can't wait till Wednesday when he has off. I miss him so much when hes working.
My Dad isn't big on fathers day so we just got him a cake. He told me not to get him any thing, so you see we needed a new grill cover so I got the "grill" a grill cover hehe. He was happy.

I didn't do much else today besides find out that a couple that we were good friends with who decided to not talk to us for 8 months is angry because we didn't invite them to the wedding, so now the girl is talking about us saying that we are not going to make it. She is also saying that I never let DH out of the house which is completely not true! She snubbed us off which involved talking about us saying that we "stop by" to much or call to much to get together so we stopped getting together! Then Tom started working 2nd shift before he was working nights and I was in EMT school, running my fire company (vice president) and planning a wedding so no one saw us much which was understood by our little circle of friends. Our friend that she was talking to about us flat out said to her "so when you get married your going to let C out of the house then? HA!

Now I try not to get involved with such nonsense but when it is something so blatantly wrong and rude but it feels so good when some one is put in their place like that. hehe
Well it looks like I either ate something bad or my body is making me rest lol. Oh well i just have to let it run it's coarse and rest.

My sister told me something that I was not very happy with. She told me to get a job. I said I have one; she said that since I don't have a salary I don't have a job. I told her that I don't have to validate my self as having worth by getting a job. And that was the end of it.

In fact I shouldn't have to validate my beliefs to her either but I'm just trying to keep the peace.

As I write this she did it again, telling me to get a job that is. It's so irritating.


We painted and stripped wallpaper today. DH has work tonight so we wont be doing anything till Sunday. I think we both need a break so I'm happy with that.

I'm looking through my Nana's old cook books and I can't wait till I can cook my husband a meal!

You have to understand that my family doesn't necessarily think the same way I do. My mom was a sahm and got bored so she went to work. I am not like that. I love my mom to death but we are different. My sister is even worse. She is a die hard feminist. I'm not sure if she even knows my intentions, but lets just say we clash allot on allot of things. My Dad well we don't talk much in general. But, any way back to cooking, I plan on making my own bread, canning, cooking from scratch, and making our own snacks and such. I want to get away from all the store bought junk...kwim? In general I want in my apartment lol. Thats it for now.
It has been raining here for a week and a half now and it's only been in the 60's!! Ick. But, I know come July it will be hot and dry as a desert and we will be busier than ever at the station.

Now let's see what did I do today?

-Went to my bank to close my account
-Went to Dh's to be put on his account and deposit wedding money
-Went to Sam's club to get our membership
-Went to Salvation Army to see what i could find- I found a rice cooker for 5 dollars and a pair of jeans for 3 dollars
- Went to the Paint store and got 25 gallons of paint *giggles*
-Went to Ollies and got 2 carpets one we have to go back for tomorrow and 4 towels 12 wash cloths and 4 hand towels
-Went back to the apartment and moved the rest of the stuff out.
-Cleaned EVERY THING!!!

Now tomorrow we are getting the other carpet, removing wall paper in the kitchen, spackling and hopefully starting to paint!!!! YAY!

I'm sleepy : )
So we made allot of progress today with the apartment. All but a desk a Christmas tree and a shelving unit are moved out. Tomorrow we are getting paint and carpet then moving the rest. YAY!

Then we can start painting and laying carpet!!!
With the Iranian government. The things that these "secret police" are doing to the citizens makes me sick! And the fact that they are no longer letting media in is making me worry more. This is the only media we have out of Iran right now.

They raided a college and beat students for no reason and carted them off to God knows where! I am outraged!

I will be praying for peace and for the families of those who have lost loved ones in this atrocity. I hope the truth will come out. Unfortunately freedom isn't free.
DH went back to work last night for the first time since we wed. I didn't know I could miss him any more that I usually did when he went to work. Obviously I was wrong. Now hes at w0rk again today this time earlier and for a 12 hour shift to make up for lost time last week. I really miss him.

In other news things are a little discombobulated lol I'm in the process of sorting through stuff so we can move and I'm starting to write thank you cards.

I'm off to read my blogs : )
I've been married for 2 days and I can honestly say that I can't be happier. It feels right. I know that allot of women now a days do not think the way I do but I can't understand why. What could be better than taking care of your husband and children. I see no better a job then that. But, I guess that's just me.

We are now staying with my parents until our apartment is ready. Honestly I can't wait. I love my parents but I want to be the soul keeper of my own home with my husband. And I will be probably by July. Hopefully. That's all for now. : )